The wolf among the sleep

Childhood wounds, lost potentials, and the shadow figures representing self alienation... also denied passions, sexual and spiritual. These cannot be successfully repressed or prayed away. Neither can they be banished away with auto-suggestion, programs, or grief. To lose them is to lose ourselves, for they are part of the soul, neccessary for our wholeness. We must face them and feed them, we must come into conscious relationship with our Beast.

By smothering our desires to live passionately, we deprive ourselves of life's adventures. It is my belief that when we deny our hearts its expressions for whatever reason, we are in a spiritual crisis. True spirituality seeks love, vitality, authenticity, and enjoyment of the sensuous existence. We betray our spiritual nature when we seek to resolve our tension by sublimating them in affairs, addictions, busyness, mindless recreations, and other negative activities....merely pacifying that something dark that grows inside.

One must learn to hold the tensions between desires and the responsibilites and duties defined by conventional wisdom. You must grow through them or beyond them by holding their forces in harmonious opposition. When they are held in this manner their effects on us becomes creative and this is soul work at its best-------A yoga, the inside working on the outside, the circle of the soul, where opposites contained in a circle of relatedness operate in harmonious opposition to calm the destructive element that torments our life from the outside in.

Now that we are conscious of the savage incubus that dwells the darkest corridors of our being, we gain powerful realization of how through the development of ourselves, we can create a vessel where life's greatest energies are brought together in a way that stretches love from the beginning of our lives until their material endz. In making the effort to know the truth of ourselves, there is nothing more necessary or potentially transforming than seeking to release the love in each of us struggling against great odds to be born into the great awakening and the taming of the raging beast within.....jc